I just want to live. A better, stronger,fuller life. I dont need to escape reality and run offf to Paris or Spain. I just need....to live. To have the security to live. Something i struggle with now. I dont have the security to live. I dont have the security to enjoy the life i have. I am always afraid. Mostly, because i am always one false step from losing it all. One paycheck away from everything ive worked so hard for being lost. I want to live.... @Chelseanbernd